Remembrance

I can recall the day.
I captured it in a bottle; Timeless......
Imperishable, so I thought.
I was so naive to believe that you could relieve the eternal flame that burns within me.
The rock I had to have to represent what I assumed that we shared has changed.
Although it IS beautiful, time has ripped across it's smooth surface and, it's luster has worn away
The sand is no longer tan,but, a murky,lonely abyss that captures the rock and changes it's hue
The water that was once so clear has something growing in it
I can't believe that my innocent adolescent gesture could be so true to us and what we've become
you are the sand
and I
the rock, constantly sinking in you as you tear into me.
Infecting me....suffocating my mind
and....
On top of it all......
THERE IS SOMETHING GROWING IN IT!!!!
~Nydi

Today

today
today is the day that i should forget about my rage
one day.....but, not today
about the pain
and you're delay
one day
but not today
about the blod i shed in such delay
one day but not today
one day i will feel okay
one day but not today
my body is numb today
and

i am the slave of abuse today
today
i am a child of misery's prey
and although i smile and say
it's okay
it's not
especially today.
but one day
thats not today
i willl
i willl be okay
and all thoughts of dismay will
survey the world that we see today
with no rehab
cuz
i am re-hab on the ship that i purvey


and although
my day is
not today
someday........
i willl be
okay
not today
but
someday.

~Nydi